Hello all… Just wanted to introduce you to my newest blog. I have been working on this idea for quite some time, and I just went live a few minutes ago. As you can see, I’ve done some rebranding of my name to become more discoverable online but feel free to still call me ~M if my nickname “Ellie” is confusing to you. I love you guys and hope you’re having a wonderful day. ~M (Aka ~Ellie đ xoxo
*Oh and a few people have been having a hard time finding the link to my new site. So here it is in case the one above doesn’t work. ellieevermore.com
Iâve never sought fame, and Iâve never searched for fortune, even though the hand I was dealt was such a small portion. But when youâre used to having little, brimming isnât what you need. Your life becomes humble, never filled with pointless greed. So, Iâm thankful for my lot in life; Iâve been doing just fine. Meager but abundantly happy and wonderfully resigned.
Being separated from the ones you love is a lonely place to be.
I suppose some may never understand what this is like, but I believe most will know this feeling well.
I have had enough of this torture to realize that we donât get to decide how or when we will be separated.
There are even those we love who will never be able to grace our paths no matter how long we yearn.
The distance from those loved ones may as well be a trip to the moon.
These are lifeâs true tragedies, and the heart cannot comprehend why this is the way it has to be.
Itâs especially difficult during a dark night, one void of loving arms and reassurance.
We cannot then comprehend the reality of our circumstances.
Thatâs when the heart realizes how truly alone it is and suffers in silence as it mostly always has.
These are the sad truths that often live inside us all.
Few speak of these sufferances, but that doesnât make them any less painful.
The only way to survive the distance is to reach out as much as you can, sending deeply felt âI love yousâ and sincerely honest âthinkings of you.â
Insecurities are pointless, for youâll never be forgotten by someone who is meant for you; the attachment goes far too deep to be severed by passing fancy.
And inside the heart of every heart one knows their true intentions. Thus, nothing will ever fall away when it is destined for your life.
Simply trust your intuition as every soul reveals its secrets. In actions so clearly displayed, the final test resides so assuredly within the eyes of those we seek.
Wilted, thatâs how I feel, a flower thatâll never bloom again. My petals droop and die, fluttering to the ground one by one; will I ever be restored?
Iâm going through this phase; maybe someone can relate. Emptiness encases me like a thick woolen glove.
Iâm trying to escape the feeling of being smothered and surrounded by all that has invaded my insides over these past fifty-some years.
Is it too much to ask to be able to understand myself?
Š 2025 Michelle Cook
*These were some personal sentiments I found when reading through my journal over this past year. I think Iâm much closer to understanding myself now, but there are days when the weight of this world still closes in on me and reminds me of all the things I wish I could change. Iâm happy that I never stay stuck in my head for long, and I generally snap back after a few days of wallowing in self-pity. Iâm continuing to look for ways to keep a positive outlook on life. Nobody wants to be droopy forever. đ