We hold on…

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We hold on to the feelings
We all once knew
The times when love blossomed
And progressively grew
But things change
And people pull away
We’re left not knowing
What else we can say
It’s so hard to let go
Of someone close to our heart
But often they’ve decided
To make a new start
We can suffer for years
Wishing things were different
The past can haunt us
When we become reminiscent
Then we realize the truth
That life must go on
Even if those we once cherished
Have now permanently gone
And we get through it all
Letting go day by day
Knowing there’s nothing more
We could ever do or say

© 2017 Michelle Cook

Convoluted currents

There’s a stormy sea
grown inside of me
It began with a patch of foam
then grew into an unkind home

I’ve watched it churn
I’ve seen the swirls
bleak yet brilliant
as each unfurls

Memories fuel
the murky brew
sad and sorrowful
images of you

The outer waves
seem almost serene
but underneath
is a raging scene

There are the days when
the waters shimmer
but as the world turns
things start to simmer

Sandy crystals
flee my palms
I breath deeper
to remain calm

Once again
I try to leave
but like a prisoner
I can only grieve

I start to lose pieces
of what was me
watching as the waves
carry them out to sea

This old rhythmic cycle
beginning once more
whilst I’m still tied
to this weathered shore

© 2024 Michelle Cook


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Cancer

It’s like a knife that peels
A blade that steals
It keeps embedding stakes in my heart

And you can’t die
Cause then I couldn’t lie
About the pain it’d impart

I need you to fight
Give it all your might
But I just feel you wither

The tears are there
Beneath the surface they stare
Fuck,
I just need you

© 2024 Michelle Cook


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For those of you who left comments, thank you. I’ve decided not to publish comments or to comment back and I hope y’all can understand. Much love… ~M xo

Times Square Travails

And then suddenly you were gone
like the rustling of crumpled leaves
fading against the backdrop
of a saturated city

My sails became limp and lifeless
hanging threadbare
against Times Square temptations
leaving me with a melancholy mindset
in the midst of a cosmopolitan dream

Manhattan meanderings
simultaneously stifled
an adventure left orphaned
under clouds full of finality

A meteor shower of emotions
enhancing the dimly lit depression
causing a crater of convictions
to overflow and seep into the crevices
flooding my ever-dispirited heart

© 2023 Michelle Cook


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Just reflecting

Do you ever wonder why things
can’t be as they were
Time always changes things
and causes such a stir

People eventually change
and that’s because everyone grows
still I miss the old ways
and change I do oppose

I miss when my kids were little
the times of simple bliss
now the world has gotten so hectic
everything’s amiss.

I struggle with the here and now
and the moments way back then
still knowing I’d never want to do
all those years again

As great as they really were
life was hard then too
I guess I need to remember that
whenever I’m feeling blue

One never really thinks
about the day their children will leave
and it’s sad when they forget you
It’s something you forever grieve

I know my very own parents
probably feel the exact same way
but the distance makes it harder
and so we drift away.

And friends are difficult to follow
everyone’s here and there
but there’s only one of me
though I’d love to be everywhere

And now that I am older
I find myself learning to be still
sinking into the background
not looking for a thrill

Still I am very happy
and maybe more content than most
but very humbly I say that
for I’d never want to boast

I do enjoy my life though
and yet some days are still so sad
but they’re few and far between
and for that I’m really glad

And today I’m just reflecting
missing those who’ve gone afar
and I think I’ve come to accept
I have to leave them where they are

© 2023 Michelle Cook


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