I’ve noticed it’s the quiet that hits the hardest The vacancy of your notifications on a busy day The little interruptions I became quite accustomed to And I miss those ever-loving interludes with you The way you’d plead and beg for more time I never quite understood how little time we had left If only I’d known, I would’ve never said goodbye
I’m trying to be better about reaching out, to be more intentional with my words, but oh, how I fail miserably. There is never enough time for every person I love and for every person who loves me. I wrestle with being able to give enough of myself, but at the same time, I’m trying to save some of myself just for me. Oh, what a predicament! One day, I will be done trying; my body will at last wear out, and I’ll be lost to the wind, scattered on some sorrowful breeze, on some unexpected lonesome day. Will I have done enough? Maybe it won’t matter because maybe in the grand scheme of things, I am just me — a tiny particle of dust who doesn’t stand a chance of making any difference at all.