My Sarah bunny…

February 12, 2020 ~ ~M ~ 6 Comments

You’re the only one
who truly ever knew me.
I confided in you
nearly every day.
I whispered to you
all my secrets in the dark,
and promised you
everything my little heart could give.
You were the only one who listened
every day when the fights erupted.
You heard my screams
and comforted me the best you could.
When I cried my eyes out,
spilling out countless tears,
you showed me
that I was not alone.
You never left my side,
which always made me feel loved.
And you’re still special to me,
even though you’re not a living being.
I think you’re the only reason
I had any hope at all back then
because my little girl eyes
couldn’t find love or comfort anyplace else.

Fantasies

January 24, 2020 ~ ~M ~ 7 Comments

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While waiting for the stars
To somehow align
I borrowed your fantasies
And turned them into mine

I couldn’t keep clinging
To the old ones I kept
They were too full of sadness
And so much regret

Words

December 17, 2019December 17, 2019 ~ ~M ~ 16 Comments

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Words
I wrestle with them.
Some are just worth fighting for.

And even one good word can make life worth living — bringing hope to a day, which might otherwise be dark and dismal.

But a bad word can be so disheartening — often reminds me of a rosebud that wilts before it ever has the chance to bloom.

If only our words could always be like rainbows,
we’d never have to feel so gray.

Apathetic

December 12, 2019December 12, 2019 ~ ~M ~ 15 Comments

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I am living,
but I’m not living.
Been lost in a tailspin
of leftovers,
and today
I crashed.
Jumbled pieces of me
lie strewn about.
I don’t know which
to pick up first,
so I do nothing
as usual.