Silent killer, invisible threat, wrapped around my heart like an all-consuming net. Tugging, squeezing, barely able to breathe, this is the reason why I endlessly grieve. The elephant in the room gets heavier on my heart, feels like my insides are being ripped apart. Loss is a thing I cannot seem to bear; still, the weight of it follows me everywhere.
The afternoon settles into a quiet calm. But it’s here in this noiseless state, where I find myself interrupted by restless winds. Those unexpected currents stir up buried memories of regretful sighs and uneasy bitter truths. Then with trepidation coursing through my veins, a quiet declaration is made. I move in silent determination, carefully traversing those frustrating fields, where chaotic blooms begin to mushroom in my mind. At last taking control, seizing those past reflections, wrestling with the delirium of all those unspoken things. And finally after hours of agonizing lamentations, those lingering grievances begin to crumble inside an iron-gripped will. All those listless thoughts long in their coming, turning to ash, fluttering lifelessly to the ground, tasting their very last words.